Confession
Thoughts swirling, confused
Admitting, confessing
Terrified of how I feel
Jealous, angry, hopeful, anxious
So afraid it makes me dizzy
Sometimes, sometimes I feel
Like I’ll never totally accept
Knowing, they’ll never totally accept
Feelings flourished so quickly
This one confession
Turning my thoughts inside out
Upside down
Taking over my head
This one confession
Will change my life
In a way I never knew
So aware of everyone
So aware of myself
But somehow these feelings
Crept up on me
Somehow I never knew
The day I finally said it, admitted
So terrified, I could barely form words
My terror, overwhelming,
These feelings, confusing
Rushing headfirst
Into emotions, thoughts
I never imagined I’d have
This confession has changed my outlook
My opinions, my attitude
This confession has changed me
This confession has made me alive.
I was addicted to heroin too. Not too fun. I like what you wrote, I can relate to that feeling of wanting to get help, but scared too, because your not sure whats going happen. But in the end, it was the best thing…at least that’s what I thought you wrote it about, ha. Have a great new years!