I am going to change

The truth is that I’m a bad person.
But that’s gonna change. I’m going to change.
This is the last of that sort of thing.
Now I’m cleaning up, and I’m moving on.
Going straight and choosing life.
I’m looking forward to it already.
I’m gonna be just like you.
The job, the family, the fucking big television…
the washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener…
good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance…
mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage…
three-piece suite, D.I.Y., game shows, junk food, children…
walks in the park, nine-to-five, good at golf…
washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas…
indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing gutters…
getting by, looking ahead, the day you die.

Chasing the Dragon – Heroin Smoking

Welcome in my friend
Out of the cold where it’s warm
Please step in
What’s your name my friend
My name’s the same
What a strange coincidence
Glad you’re come to this place
What’s the pleasure you chase
Oh, you like playing with speed
Well I have all the answers you need

I can take you
High and make you
Invincible
I’ll never leave you

Welcome in my friend
Try some of this
What you’ll feel is amazing
Tap a tiny blast
In a crease of foil
Place this flame beneath it
White smoke you will inhale
A speed rush you will exhale
The goose bumps prickle your skin
Just enough to dig the hooks in

I can take you
High and make you
Invincible
But now you’re hollow

You’re crawling on the floor
But you’ll be back for more… yeah

Hello there my friend
Back for the sweet poison so soon again
But this lie must end
I must collect for those pleasures gave
When I first told you my name
I told you ours were the same
And that’s not really a lie
My real name is your addiction

I will bring you
Down and break you
Burn right through you
Won’t regret you

Lyrics Only the names – Machine Head

I…

When will it end? I wish that I could forget as easily as I remember.
Just letting it go, watching it float away, and moving on today?

Confession

Thoughts swirling, confused
Admitting, confessing
Terrified of how I feel
Jealous, angry, hopeful, anxious
So afraid it makes me dizzy
Sometimes, sometimes I feel
Like I’ll never totally accept
Knowing, they’ll never totally accept
Feelings flourished so quickly
This one confession
Turning my thoughts inside out
Upside down
Taking over my head
This one confession
Will change my life
In a way I never knew
So aware of everyone
So aware of myself
But somehow these feelings
Crept up on me
Somehow I never knew
The day I finally said it, admitted
So terrified, I could barely form words
My terror, overwhelming,
These feelings, confusing
Rushing headfirst
Into emotions, thoughts
I never imagined I’d have
This confession has changed my outlook
My opinions, my attitude
This confession has changed me
This confession has made me alive.